sinecure \SY-nih-kyur; SIN-ih-\, noun:

sinecure \SY-nih-kyur; SIN-ih-\, noun:
An office or position that requires or involves little or no
responsibility, work, or active service.


why i've never felt so good to be in my apartment before. ever. it is cuddly.

so great. i love it so ; and apple+tab shows me my programs and i realize i tunes isn't ones of them. and it always is. always! shared playlists! not tonight until now. i just picked up a random poland spring bottle. it may be rotten.in the way water is rotten. those things floating are ..bad. don't several have whipping tails? sick. of you just keep filling a container... of bacteria...will it adventually get full? i've heard about dieasease in water.


i am so wierd, i can't stop myself from obsessively cataloging everything. esp. stuff jan's got in those wierd little boxes upstairs. it's nice to have a home.

but i hate the light. things should move as i command. No daylight until I am deep into my dreams, of such great things i can't remember mostly. I volunteer to go to the other world.

there is too many colors. to many things. Sounds that hurt my ears... hurt as my Hope sleeps silently in the correct position in her room. Do i listen to things that rip my heart out- or focus on the sleep. I want an adventure. Something to make me feel once, as i did, upon a time. Oh, the angst. Cry. But the happys. Life is hard.

-- actually i am a liar. every day is like that. I feel it, and i love it. The people that hug me will find out.




'all in a row!!! !'
downy
lighter fluid
playing cards on top of faith my george micheal
elmers carpenter glue
baggy's of chess pieces
box of vistaprint cards
electronic flask ( bartender aid)
cheep aviator sunglasses on top of bike pump
irritating compass that whistles and flashes and stuff
oldlove show printout
coke snorting tube
poloroid of jan
cig container with community smokes written with an actual labeler.
donut and ball cat toy
shelve 2
black tap
keyboard w/notes labeled
bic pencils
vhs of nunday funday
my rabbit
specialpaper
2 unopened multi-purpose file cases
the boring chages sales order
pretty basket - they all died.
stand of ikean light
my crazed disorged cd coll
mutual coll of audio tapes
shoebox burlesque flyers
jeremiah clancey
many ahndwarmers
can of face powder
1 swifer
turpentine
OH MY FUCK MY BOUNCY BALL
name tag
hair clip
fucking pewter cross w/jesus
a plant part - something i cant identify
keychain of world trade centre
nail clipper
airport card - stolen
phone books?
1 detergant
1 detergant
1 the biggest detergant i have ever seeb


chess set
tripod
lamp w/faux user